Wanting to go into a new, and very different, career is scary. Doing it without the clear guideposts and sense of forward momentum and guidance that college offers is occasionally terrifying.
I feel like I have no idea what I’m doing. If I’m moving forward. If I’m delusional to think that I could become an illustrator just by teaching myself and putting junk online.
And teaching myself is HARD! I’m not literally teaching myself-there is an overwhelming array of online and in text resources available. That doesn’t always make it easier though.
Some of the risks of trying to teach myself I think about our:
- Without external deadlines I might never actually FINISH something. I have ambitious goals and timelines…and am very forgiving to myself.
- There’s no curriculum-how do I know what to work on?! Will I waste time on classes that offer no value or even teach me something incorrectly while I miss out on some important foundational lesson?
- It’s hard to get feedback-how will I know what to work on? Will I improve slowly/not at all?
- No classmates. I love my roommates and friends! But instead of working together with them on homework or discussing art lessons-I’m more often distracted from art by their amazing presence and willingness to go out for Mexican food.
- Self-doubt. When I was in college for education there was a clear path I knew I could follow and succeed at.